Let it out.

well, I found out today my blog is definately untraceable by anyone unless he or she got lucky.
courtesy of mier of course.

It's good in a way, I can keep things quiet about this, after all, these feelings and oppinions can really land me into trouble.
I wonder, will I let mier be the first one to read this? maybe, maybe not, cause I would always run the risk of her getting careless, but then again, she hasn't told anyone my other secrets either.

Well, at least she understand why I do this, writing this blog I mean.

Did I explain it in my first post or something? I don't remember. well anyway, I think I ought to explain it now just in case (I'm lazy to go and check).

This blog acts as my journal, my diary. I write my thoughts, private stuff in a place easily accessible place by any stranger at any place at any time of day. while I don't mind that happening, I do mind if it's people from Kuching, especially if they know me. That's because I don't want to give them another thing to judge me with, cause if they think I'm bad enough just from knowing me in person, they'll think I'm MAD if I let them see this. I suppose I COULD tell a select few, but that be a small few indeed. These thoughts are my ideals, my beliefs, my opinions, my hopes and dreams, and while I don't mind them being known, I do mind them being disrespected. You have to understand that most people harbour these thoughts too at some point in their life (or not, i mean quite a lot of people have crazy thoughts too, but unlike them i write it out for self reflection) and I write them so that I won't forget them ( I have bad memory) and will strive for them ( cause I might get lazy if I don't constantly remind myself of a certain goal's importance).

Sigh, my mom's rushing me off (she doesn't like me on this omputer, but she can only nag me off cause it's a saturday and I don't need to go for anything early tomorrow morning).

hmmm, I wonder if this blog's good enough yet to let people read (it's only 55, *sorry, 56 posts so far).

oh what the hell. Hello Mier, you're officially the first person to view this, be proud (I think) that I trust you enough. =)

BAH. my mom won't stop nagging me, I gotta stop here. Till next time then.