Cowardice.

I read this blog again everytime I do another post, and all I can say about myself is; what a whiner.

I whine about all of my problems from the insignificant scuffle to the cat at the airport. But this IS my blog after all. I can whine as much as I want.

Today's been a blast, I went down to celebrate hari raya with Amir and the gang.
tried my hand at gituar hero, it's damm pwn! I now have a deeper appreciation for the hard work the men of Dragonforce put in to create the masterpiece known as Through the Fire and the Flames *bows in awe*

I realized this was probably the last time I'd come for a visit to my best friend's house, I took the occasional moment to just look at all of them, the people who I call my friends. It's funny, all this while I've held such distrust for them, yet here I am already missing them. I've got about another month or two with them, and I personally want nothing more than to just enjoy these last few times I have left with all of them.

Now I'll get to the topic from the title. It was an opportune moment, or at least, it seemed from my angle. the stage was set, the roles prepared and all that I had to do was to take the leap of faith and just do it. But I didn't. moments later events proved that had I done so it would have proved to be an akward moment. But ain't that the perfect excuse for cowardice? I HESITATED. I STOPPED at the last possible moment. when everything seemed right I just didn't have the guts to do it. Inaction may have saved me embarrassment, but cowardice is cowardice. I could not function when the situation demanded it, and it destroys my liability. Could I be counted in extreme situations? Or will I chicken out?

I won't know I guess, until another situation arises.

yay! It's confirmed and I'm going down under for my training! wohoo! now all Ihave to worry about are rattlesnakes, racists and hay fever. JOY.