Over sensitive.

I'm an overly conscious person, I get it. I dramatize the slightest issues and get unsettled by the tiniest hints or signs, But I've never not known the possibility of it's insignificance; I just like making big issues, love the chaos. But now, I'm faced with an rather annoying problem of not knowing what I've done or may have said that would trigger such cold responses from people I thought were good friends. This is why I never liked teenage drammas, no character in them are ever out in the open with their feelings. They hold in their crushes, hatreds or grudges and never tells the object of those emotions that they're doing something wrong till they're eventually pushed off the edge unintentionally and the world pretty much ends. Object of emotion is at a loss, unsure as to why he's getting the cold treatment but he himself is too afraid to ask, and the cycle continues. Fantastic, absolutely fucking fantastic. sigh.

A pal of mine, B has been real cold to me lately. By cold I mean he moved his seat away from me, refuses to engage in any conversation and now tries to shoot me down even more than ever when we're both in the gang chat, when he's NOT ignoring me completely. No warning either, just after I tripped the bio teacher he just got mad and stopped talking to me. It's stupid, possibly even trivial the reason if I were to relate the bio incident to why he's cold, and that's why I think that wasn't just it. I must have done something else, be it gradual or just one major mistake that drove him off; Problem is I don't have the faintest clue why.

If I don't know what's wrong how can I solve it? Trivial or not, I HAVE to find out what wrong before I get too depressed, I always am when things like this happen. It's cause I KNOW I did something, but I don't know what it is so I can't write it off as trivial or something I must apologize for before my AGGRAVATING conscience and "need to knowness" gnaws me out completely.

Now this brings me to the main topic of this post; I may like it, but am I over dramatizing this issue? IS it even an issue? I know, well actually no, I don't know whether this is even a issue worth talking about. Just thought this might be something I can write about.

signing off, I have to go see my dad at the hospital, apparently a stem operation's 3% fatality rate is worth bitching over.