Awakening

Awakening
Artist: Switchfoot
Face down with the LA curbside endings
With the ones and zeros.
Downtown was the perfect place to hide.
The first star that I saw last night was a headlight
Of a man-made sky, but man- made never made our dreams collide,
Collide.

Here we are now with the falling sky and the rain,
We're awakening
Here we are now with our desperate youth and the pain,
We're awakening
Maybe it's called ambition, you've been talking in your sleep
About a dream, we're awakening

Last week found me living for nothing but deadlines,
With my dead beat sky but, this town doesn't look the same tonight
These dreams started singing to me out of nowhere
And in all my life I don't know if I've ever felt so alive,
Alive

I want to wake up kicking and screaming
I want to wake up kicking and screaming
I want to know that my heart's still beating,
It's beating,
I'm bleeding
I want to wake up kicking and screaming
I want to live like I know what I'm leaving
I want a heart that I know is beating,
It's beating... it's beating...
I'm bleeding


I saw this survey in my bulletin board on friendster, and I couldn't resist.
E're we gao!

Would you look for someone right after you and your bf/gf broke up?
- Dunno, probably not.
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What was the last alcoholic beverage you consumed?
- Red red WiIIine
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What was your last conversation on the phone about?
- Pick up place.
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Is there someone on your mind that shouldn't be?
- There isn't anyone who shouldn't be in my mind.
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What did you do last night?
- Sleep, tired from exams.
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Do you think things will change in the next few months?
- depends what those things are.
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If you're being extremely quiet, what does that mean?
- Re-examining myself for self-correction, Mounting anger or just feel melachonic.
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Are you forgiving?
- More than I'd like to be.
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Look at your recent calls, who was your last call from?
- Mom.
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Do you have a reason to smile right now?
- "The world was all grey, But ones who live in it gives it all the vibrancy it needs" Not sure if I phrased that right.
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Who was the last girl you talked to?
- mom.
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Last guy?
- Malcom
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Do you say sorry first?
- depends on the situation.
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What is on your bed right now?
- 2 pillows, a boster(is that how u spell it?) and a blanket.
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Would you honestly say you'd risk your life for someone else? have you done it already?
- I wouldn't hesitate if it was someone I care about, but of course fearing death I would do so only in extreme necessity. No I haven't done it, or probably done it without me realising it.
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Are you afraid of death?
- Very. But it's the fear of it that keeps me alive.
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Who is the girl you trust most?
- there are a few, but the most? ier, cause she has the highest secret count.
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What plans do you have for tomorrow?
- exams, study, paint, draw... I dunno.
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When's the last time you had a headache?
- just a while ago.
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Last thing you drank?
- water.
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Who did you last hold hands with?
- I dunno.
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Ever made a cake by yourself?
- yup.
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What was the last movie you saw in theaters?
- Uugh, Twilight. I swear, my parents forced me into it, I hate sparkling vampires...
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What was the last type of fruit you ate?
- Pineapple.
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Do you wear pink?
- Fuck no.
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Have you ever seen the last person you texted naked?
- only half.
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What was the first thing you had to drink today?
- Coffee
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Will tomorrow be better than today?
- hopefully.
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When is your birthday?
- early april
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Do you want to see somebody right now?
- I suppose.
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When was the last time you cried?
- quite a while.
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What are you thinking about right now?
- Not sure, mind's all a blur...
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Think of the person you'd like to be with the most right now; When did you last talk?
- Quite a while.
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Who was the last person's voice you heard?
- Mom


Well, said simply, I'm a guy that hates hipocrisy. I hate people who preach about forgiveness and kindness while they undermine others and carry grudges to the grave. So not wanting to be one, I try to live life as I say I would.
I have principles, and I abide by them. I speak up against people whom I think has done wrong, Always be fair to both parties in an arguement; giving a good word for the "bad guys" and remind peole of the faults of the "good guys"( I only say the truth about both sides, afeter all noone's ever completely right, and noone is ever completely wrong) and in doing so I gain many enemies. I've been labelled wierd, bizzare, eccentric, annoying, a nerd, Spontaneous and erratic. In short, I don't like to compromise beliefs and principles, and in the my wake I've upset a LOT of apple carts.
Is this what I want? No, the isolation and rejection I get on a day to day basis is terrible, not to mention the unending paranoia of vengeful enemies and traitors alike. But, I have a code of conduct, and it was that we should ALWAYS stand up for ourselves, EVERYONE is equal unless he or she's earned your respect, and DO what you preach; and if you truly follow these seemingly logical principles, it won't seem suprising anymore why I am what I am.